14 hours. That is what stands between now and picking up my daughter, becoming a mom for good. I can’t tell you all the emotions that I am feeling at this moment. I am so beyond excited and feeling incredibly blessed, but obviously fear of the unknown and nerves are creeping in as the clock ticks.
Ellie is an incredible, kind-hearted 16-year-old that God has placed in my life. Even though we have only had weekend visits thus far, I truly cannot imagine my life without her in it.
God has always changed the plans that I have imagined for myself. I imagined myself adopting once I was married, but God made it clear that it was His will for me to adopt now, not once I had life “figured out.” Some things come in an order that we don’t expect and are not considered “normal.” I imagined I would have all the details of Ellie’s move figured out before she moved in, but God has been teaching me to trust in Him throughout this COVID-19 pandemic. So many questions have been going through my mind: Is it fair to have Ellie start a new school all online? How are we supposed to spend weeks inside without going crazy?
I have to keep reminding myself that I am not the one who is writing this story. God has it under control and He just needs me to trust Him and to give Him my ‘yes.’ My prayer is that we can all grow in this kind of trust, especially when things don’t go as we imagined.